So where am I in terms of treatment? still on chemo, still enduring the daily task of dealing with side effects and having to manage 3 kids. It's not easy, I wish I could say it was but its really not.
Alongside the 'standard' side effects: sickness, diarrhoea, stomach cramps, sore feet and hands, the one that it almost too hard to describe is the bone crushing tiredness and fatigue. It's not even a sleep tiredness, my body physically hurt and just wants to lay still... for a long time. Of course with daily life, that type of rest doesn't happen all that often.
How long is this treatment going to carry on for? at least until July where surgery is imminent, however several bone issues a re causing me some kind of headaches of which I shall find out cause and prognosis in due time.
Home life? well, we are still staying in temporary accommodation until the house we purchased is habitable. It was an old house that was lived in by an old couple for over 40 years so as you can imagine not alot of work was done, enter us. Its a long process making sure everything is safe for a family to move into, a process that being done on one income is hard but where there's a will, there's a way.
The kids... well, they are still so absolutely crazy and gorgeous. Liv is 4 and well and truly settled into school life albeit some issues with friendship groups. She is still the most sweetest, kindest and thoughtful girl she always was. Paige is 2 going on 22 and is a force to be reckoned with although despite the hard exterior there is some serious love going on there. Carter is now 17 months old - can you believe it? He is still a mummies boy and clings to me for dear life pretty much 15 hours a day, but he is a loveable rogue. He has massive hands that remind me of Wreck it Ralph and a mullet that would easily win some awards.
All in all we are ok, cos we have to be. I've never tried to pretend that the cancer journey is easy, I'm not one of these people that is overly positive, because you know what it aint all sweetness and light. I have days that are really positive and days where I can't be arsed to fix that smile on my face - but that my friends, is just life.
